I LIVE!
LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL! I WISH YOU ALL HAPPY !!!!!!!!! NEN
Monday, December 31, 2007
Sunday, December 30, 2007
Burst Capillaries Cost Laser
no improvement
It is getting worse. I want to switch off only, not partecipate to this life. It is expected of me that I make a decision. How am I supposed to do only if all or almost all will be set against that decision. I am therefore very insecure and also knows not what is right and what is wrong. Because there are only two choices, and whatever I decide it will hurt. The more I try to explain the Hasan, or to explain how bad I feel the greater the distance between us ... Because everything he says will hurt me or shows how different we are. As there was a thick wall between us. When it's just born? Or was it always there? To different mentalities?
I have to wonder about my mother constantly, because it has given hope that Hasan could fold. I have a feeling I would be understood by every man around me wrong. It is the breach of privacy and a clear crossing my mental limits. Did I like the earlier approved. The last 1.5 years I have to practice so much so that I learn the distinction, so I know my limits and insist that they respect all.
I slide into the old patterns of behavior I just noticed. For fear of pain. But there is no way out, because if I do not now act together and take responsibility for my life, I'll still end up in psychiatry.
It is getting worse. I want to switch off only, not partecipate to this life. It is expected of me that I make a decision. How am I supposed to do only if all or almost all will be set against that decision. I am therefore very insecure and also knows not what is right and what is wrong. Because there are only two choices, and whatever I decide it will hurt. The more I try to explain the Hasan, or to explain how bad I feel the greater the distance between us ... Because everything he says will hurt me or shows how different we are. As there was a thick wall between us. When it's just born? Or was it always there? To different mentalities?
I have to wonder about my mother constantly, because it has given hope that Hasan could fold. I have a feeling I would be understood by every man around me wrong. It is the breach of privacy and a clear crossing my mental limits. Did I like the earlier approved. The last 1.5 years I have to practice so much so that I learn the distinction, so I know my limits and insist that they respect all.
I slide into the old patterns of behavior I just noticed. For fear of pain. But there is no way out, because if I do not now act together and take responsibility for my life, I'll still end up in psychiatry.
Saturday, December 29, 2007
Benzoin Essential Oil Preserve
sorry
Life is all suffering already creating ... The disease comes on its own and it is always there, always has one pain. It hurts everything, love hurts, even friendship, "parenthood", so to be a mama, is also very difficult. The worst is when you will not or can see that there is only one way of this pain filled with purpose. This way is Jesus Christ. One should simply trust God.
Unfortunately, I can hardly Christian . Live I can only pray chrislich and sometimes think. I fall every day and it is terrible to understand that it has done exactly what you really wanted to avoid.
Now we part again. Hasan and myself. I do not love him and live together without love is, in turn, some as meaningless. Has our son unhappy parents earned? But everything in me screams
against this injustice. I want us to love each other and stay together because it looks nice. A fairy tale had come true.
love can not be forced, unfortunately.
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